Regrets
August 20, 2008 10:45 p.m.
Wednesday will be a year since my dad passed. It doesn't seem like it but damn it still hurts.
I also found out a friend of mine found out that they are HIV positive.
Those two things make you reflect on yourself by taking a gooood look at yourself. Makes you realize that life is too damn short to be miserable or to not live. I used to live my life like how others wanted me to but now I get to live like I want to. I regret some things in my life and there isn't anything I can do about it yet.. but overall I do like myself. Sometimes I don't make the best of decisions but my intentions are always the best.
Words can't describe how bad it hurts when I look at photos of my dad. The what should have beens..
I love him so much and didn't realize how much I did until he was gone. I held onto anger so long that the love was blinded by bitterness.
Does that ever go away?
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Regrets - August 20, 2008
WOW A YEAR?? - August 18, 2008
Good Bye Dad - August 26, 2007
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